Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Love you forever...

Sometimes the simple things in life are the ones that give you the most enjoyment. And sometimes you want to stop and freeze those moments, those tender moments that you know you can never get back. These are the memories I can’t stop thinking about and keep reliving in my mind. The simple pleasures and time spent with my Grandfather are constantly playing on loop in my memory.

Grampy was by far one of the wittiest, funniest and most charming people I have ever known and loved. He could spend hours telling jokes, none of which EVER got old and I usually never heard the same one twice. He was a dancing machine, with smooth moves that most people would be jealous of. Many of my visits with him involved storytelling and of course the jitterbug and dancing to Glenn Miller’s “In The Mood”. Since I was little, Grampy always joked that when I got married he'd "pinch my cheeks" while walking down the aisle, but thankfully for me he changed his mind and instead we did a jitterbug. It was a moment together that I will ALWAYS cherish and have to watch on video over and over.

I know now that no matter how much time you’re given, you can never prepare yourself for losing someone close to you and you can’t always heal the cancer that takes over their body. But what you can do is honor their memory and trust their spirit lives on and hope to encounter it through the simple things in life. I plan to keep alive the memories of my Grampy and share with my son some of his greatest qualities and let him know how much he was loved even before he was born.

I wish Gramps was here to pick strawberries with my son, take him ice fishing, drive him around in the Jeep, give him endless Klondike bars, and teach him how to garden. I know he will never be able to share these pleasures with him, but I KNOW that Grampy will be watching him grow and looking out for him in other ways. I also know that he has passed on his character to his own sons and especially on to my own Dad. Our son will get to know him through his own Grampy Adams, and for that I am thankful.

Grampy, thank you for the lifetime of memories you shared with me and thank you for loving us all like every Grandfather should. You always make me smile and I’ll miss dancing with you and especially miss your hugs & kisses. I will honor your memory forever. And as you told Grammy: "i'll love you forever".

Forever & Always,
mama j

Interesting note: My Dad will be 50 years old when our son is born and Grampy was 50 years old when I was born. Can’t wait to compare the photo.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

16 weeks it is....

this week's update: i have officially taken out my belly piercing (sad face), but i'm beginning to grow what appears to be a little belly bump. it's small & slightly resembles a little beer gut. thankfully my pants still fit, but my clothes are starting to feel uncomfortably tight.

Baby M (preview to his name) has been traveling the last couple days with me in Chicago and i've been on the hunt for some sexy loose-fitting clothes...not an easy task. he's been a trooper though!

So here's the 16 week photo reveal. 4 months and i think i'm still lookin' pretty good! haha

feeling good,
mama j

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Very Superstitious....

So for those of you that really know me well, you can agree that i'm impulsive by nature and impatient when it comes to exciting things. So finding out the baby's gender fell right in line with my last minute impulse to seek out an ultrasound office 5 weeks earlier than planned :-) I also may be known to have slight superstitions...not the "walk under a ladder" or "step on a crack" kind, but more like the "don't speak too soon" and "knock on wood" kind. So now that i know the sex, my slightly superstitious nature has me dreaming all crazy and double & triple checking those '3 little boy dots' on the ultrasound picture and video. I think in my last dream i made the u/s lady check the baby's gender every couple hours. Now that we know it's a boy (fingers crossed), we've already started calling him by name and getting really excited about it!

Part of my impatient nature may have also resulted in the purchase of a couple baby boy pjs...but only because i couldn't pass up the little bulldogs. The girl's clothing department is always so much bigger than the boy's selection....but they still have some REALLY cute boy outfits and shoes! My Mom and Lauren may have already purchased the cutest 2 pairs of shoes i've ever seen.

Now that we've found out it's a boy and i've purchased my first "boy item"...my superstition is starting to quickly creep up on me. So until the 20 week ultrasound and the DOUBLE confirmation i'm looking for...i'm going to lay low on my impulsive purchases.

ps. thank you husband for not playing into my erroneous beliefs, sometimes your balance is greatly appreciated.

Superstition ain't the way,
mama j

Friday, August 12, 2011

Oh BOY !!!

So the waiting is over and we can finally call the baby our little boy and our SON :-) what an exciting time and we are so thrilled to share HIM with you all. It's time for me to brush up on my planes, trains & automobiles....i can do this :-) and ryan will be the best sports coach and role model for him! no names picked yet...but we'll be sure to keep you all updated on our baby boy's journey.

oh boy,
mama j

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Bump, Bump, Bump It Up !


So the weight gaining has plateaued the past 3 weeks or so. At today's appointment I actually lost a pound. Where is this baby bump i've so dreamed of? not that i'm disappointed or anything. Although, i'll probably be looking back on this 3-4 months from now and laughing, wondering why i wished away the petite-sized wardrobe.

In the meantime, i'll enjoy my cute bump-free clothes and try to regain some of this energy i've lost. I know Ry has enjoyed my earlier bedtime, since i've always been a 'night-owl' midnight dweller. Hopefully i can round up some motivation to start exercising again and catch up on all of my late night shows.

Baby C has still been cooking (1/3 of the way there) and has a healthy heartbeat of 140. He/She has grown to the size of a ripe lemon...one i cannot wait to squeeze.

Bring on the Bump,
mama j

Saturday, August 6, 2011

What a man...

Today we celebrate the soon-to-be daddy, as he turns the big 28! happy birthday to you !

I've known Ryan for 22 years now, and i still love him for so many different reasons. One of the most exciting things about starting this family, is getting to watch him be a father. I've always known i wanted to share this experience with him and i hope Baby C gets some of his greatest qualities. To our growing Baby C, here are some of the things i hope you get from your daddy:

his green eyes
his handiness
his work ethic
his metabolism
his selflessness
his perfect teeth
his sense of direction


Wishing my husband and soon-to-be daddy a very happy birthday!

make a wish,
mama j & baby c